Fear

Fear
Fear and I are very close, we talk, and we hang out. Sometimes it stays longer than I’m comfortable with. However, he’s no faux. For; it is kin. Fear is the other side of the balance, and caution is advised but not always necessary.
I think bout fear, some much on the journey because it is a valid concern, and I should be, people here in Kenosha want to project ill will toward me, and that where my line is drawn, when there will is unreasonable or the expectation is too high as the relationship has soured and or a traumatic event resulting in fear and anxiety.
Bringing the Aiello men together for a funeral or even a get- together I can only imagine will only result in turmoil and destruction savagely imposing there various wills upon poor Kenosha, as they have respect for no one. All the while creating a sickening and histrionic environment, t hat even they cannot stand.
I really do dread the day I’m going to have to come face to face with Mr. Skee or Mike rather. What I do know is that if he comes in this hospital while I am here and disrespects Frances then he will be removed. My fear for him subsides the more back up plans and secondary safe stops are in place. These spots are designated by me and planned out in advance, assuring myself I will always be safe while I am here in Kenosha..
Therefore, I feel real good about the plans and preparations I have spiritually and emotionally. I also feel real good about making a choice to communicate with Kathy and Skee via Kathy per my mother. (Sometimes in spite of your personal baggage and fear you have to bite the bullet because every choice is not made for you alone and in this case would be selfish of me to otherwise have an agenda. The only other thing in the back of my mind is Paul he is in California now but I believe Ill see him sooner than I am ready for and when all of that goes on Frances’s home is no longer an official safe top and I will have to move to an alternate plan.
When it comes right down to it without fear we really wouldn’t really know to be cautious about anything and we would be the disposable society that we portray ourselves as today. At any rate without fear I believe in most cases we would almost always make the wrong choice, as being fearful or cautious of something in not applicable without fear.
I have written about fear before and the delights and dynamics of it wonderful process. This time the environment was looked at with specific detail of what I am fearful of today. I did not include my mother possible passing, although I have many emotions running around on that topic, fear is not at the top. Duty and love are at the top of that list.

PEACE